my lifeee ( :

thankgod for live journal, cause without it i'd be bored AND grounded. i honestly can't believe the summer went by so fast. it was a really good one. for example: i made some new friends, tryed some new things, had a good relationship that of course didn't last, broke some promises, got grounded. ect. so i'm going back to school in less that a month unfortunatley. then it's this year and then only the next year, i can't even handle it )':

woooow, what do people not understand?! if EVERY SINGLE one of your friends tell you that "said person" is leading you on. wouldn't you fucking belive them?... whatever, guess not. i'm done trying.










i can't wait to prove you wrong.

i'm in the posting mood. i haven't in a while, so i guess i'm just making up for it. lmfaolmfao i was reading my old posts and i saw that my dad was like infuriated with me way back whenever i posted those oldies. i made such a big fuss about it and to be quite honest with you i don't even remember why he was pissed in the first place. hmm, maybe it was because i got in trouble drinking in the woods with the gayass crew i was with (except brittany of course). but anyways i've been up to a whole lot of nothing. pretty much just chillen. the boy situation- gay as always. tell me how fucked up this is... i had a date to the freshmore, then i didn't, then i did, now i don't AGAIN. fml. but whatever, i don't have to go. you know me i'm a pushover. but i've always been an optimist don't ask me why.

well, my life pretty much can't get any worse. 
          i have a total of what... four legit friends? honestly, what the fuck is your problem? seriously grow the fuck up, i've made new friends, i'm NOT fucking dicking you over. you may think that because since i met you we've been inseperable but now your just a bitch to me anymore. like what did i ever do? oh yeah that's right i spent time with people who are actually nice to me and not a fucking asshole because i don't want to go out drinking one weekend. but whatever, your nothing but a joke anymore. by the way thanks to my REAL friends who made me see how much of a pushover i am; sara, linds, britt, angie, and chris. i can;t wait to start over with people who actually care. ( :
        

Name 9 people you cannot live without
9: sara
8: caitlin
7: mommy
6: dad
5: britt
4: gram
3: shelby
2: angie
1: spunky

Name 8 bands you love
8: escape the fate
7: 30H!3
6: all time low
5: the summer obsession
4: jonas brothers
3: the black cxrowes
2: guns n' roses
1: tesla

Name 7 songs you love
7: i'm so paid
6: punkbitch
5: turn my swag on
4: tonight
3: stay
2: mr. & mrs. carter
1: brand new

Name 6 words that describe you
6: weird
5: funny
4: different
3: short
2: partyer
1: good

Name 5 things that are important to you
5: family
4: friends
3: musicc
2: camera
1: dogs

Name 4 of your favourtie colours
4: teal
3: pink
2: purple
1: yellow

Name 3 things you could do without in the world
3: miley cyrus
2: war
1: fagits


Name 2 of your most missed memories
2: february, 2008
1: when i wasnt constantly worried  

Say 1 thing you think needs to be said
1: i wish you would understand.

wellll, its about 3:30. and i'm trying to make plans, wiff chelsey. which actually might work? hopefully. but, yeah me and my dad still aren't talking... AT ALL. it's really upsetting, i didn't even do anything wrong whatsoever, but whatever, i'm not gonna get worried about it. i just started this stupid LJ thing last night, and i wrote waaaayy too much. so, peaceeeeeeee!

Ten thing​s you want to say to ten different people:

1. you are my bestfriend and i know we stopped talking for a while, but now we're hanging out more often & its great! i missed talking to you all the time & i know i changed but, you were one of the few friends who stuck by my side threw thick and thin & i love you for that. since i changed a hell of a lot, it doesn't mean you have to too. your fine being you. ( : 

 

2. why do you do that to yourself? your a wonderful person inside and out. i have no idea why you would let a scumbag degrade you like that. he's not worth your time or tears. you better than that. i know i tell you this all the time & , i'm so glad your starting to realize it, your a strong girl and i love being around you. your a great friend and i love ya girly.

 

3. your a huge asshole and i hope you choke on your own dick as your blowing yourself, you piece of shit. how dare you ruin my best friends summer and freshman year. you deserve nothing. your an unbelivable jerk & idk why girls like you.

 

4. i wish we were as close as we used to be, but we are slowly fading apart. you used to be my hero, i looked up to you. but, now all you do is yell & i'm sick of it.

 

5. regardless of what we did, im so happy we never lost touch and its not akward between us at all.

 

6. i wish, you would see how much i care. your an awesome person, and i wanna get to know your more.

 

7. i hope you don't grow up to be like me, i wish you'd take my advice and ahng out with better people. trust me if you keep going down this path, your skrewed.

 

8. i'm so glad you trust me again, and our relationship is stronger than ever. i love you.

 

9. nick jonas, i accept your marriage proposal. 

 

10. i loved you, and i wish we were still together.

Nine things about yourself:
1. name's kayla.
2.  i blow out the candles on july 30th.
3. i love to party.
4. i love my family.
5. despite how much we fight, my mom's my hero.
6. i have two bestfriends.
7. i'm barley five feet.
8. i love shaun white.
9. softball is what keeps me going.

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. be fun
2. have to be nice
3. take me on a date
4. laugh a lot
5. buy me flowers
6. dance with me
7. meet my family
8. watch the notebook

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1. school
2. family
3. friends
4. food
5. musicc
6. sleep
7. the crew

Six things you wish you never did:
1. don't regert anything.
2. don't regert anything.
3. don't regert anything.
4. don't regert anything.
5. don't regert anything. 
6. don't regert anything.

Five turn-offs:
1. smelly
2. boring 
3. show-off
4. stupid
5. dislikes me

Four turn-ons:
1. nice body
2. good lookin' 
3. athletic
4. funny

Three smileys that describe your life:
1. ( :
2.  ):
4. ; D

Two things you want to do before you die:
1. fall in love
2. get married

One confession:
1. i lied.

Who was your first kiss?: uhh? honestly don't remember.

Who was your last kiss?: saraaa.

All together, how many people have you kissed?: a couple.

Do your actions ever scare you?: nope.

Have you ever been in true love?: nopee.

Ever lied to make someone feel better?: of course.

How do you like being lied to?: never.

Did you forgive the person who hurt you the most?: nahh.

Did they deserve to be forgiven?: sorta.

Can your friends count on you?: always.

Are you a good listener?: yeeeaaaap.

Does it bother you when you’re friends wont help you out?: never happened, their always there.

What’s a regret you have?: none.

Why did you cry last?: yesturdayy.

Who’s always on your mind?: school, family, friends.

Are you comfortable with your body?: not at all.

Have you ever broken a heart? Did you feel bad?: nope +nope.

Do you believe in god? Go to church?: yes & rarely

Do you keep a journal that only you should ever read?: nahh

Can you control your thoughts?: uhh, sure?

Can you control your actions?: somtimes.

How about your emotions?:always.

Have you ever done something that was really bad for yourself?: yess.

Who is it easiest to be yourself around?: family, sara & caitlin.

What can always put you in a good mood?: sleep & musicc.

The Wii or Xbox 360?: WII !  <3

Do you know many Emily’s? a few.

What do you think of the Jonas Brothers? naked ( ;

What is your favorite kind of Girlscout cookie? the carmel coconut ones.

Do you enjoy surveys? yessss.

What do you hear at the moment? tesla ; little suzi.

Why do you think so many people love myspace? its a good way to atlk to people.

What do you think of people who do illegal drugs? who cares, its not me.

What did you think of Panic at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name? nothing.

What is the worst job you have ever had? jobless.

Do you watch informercials when there is nothing on? most of the time, no life.

What is your favorite Disney Show? hannah montana, for sho'

What is your favorite kind of DQ Blizzard? cookie dough.

Have you kissed in the rain?: not yet.

Are you able to always be yourself?: in most cases.

What do you miss about your past?: too much.

Do have any idea of what your future is gonna be like?: no idea.

How do you do in school? Do you try hard?: horible, you don't even know.

Do you like to help others? Does it make you feel good?: yes & yes

Are you trust worthy?: very.

Did you lie at all in this survey?: not at all.

       yeah, well 2009 started off with a bang! NOT. on new years eve me and sara went to the spa, + it was fuuun ( : then we went to her house and ate pizza and played games with johnboy <3. after that we went to my house to count down the last 10 seconds, we had a good time ( ;. then we woke up she left, and i slept the day away. 
          caitlin finally got off grounding, so today me, her, britt, + sara went to the hockey game. we lost. then i went home, didn't go to the mall with cait, britt + kylee. but, i went to a party with cait, booze? not too much stayed on the computer the whole time ( : went home, myspaced it upp. got into a HUGE fight with my dad, who hates me now ) : then caitlin & saraa cheered me up. ohh, and did i mention?, they are the bestest friends i can ever ask for! 
                                                                                       well moree later.
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